It's all about him!

Isa 64:4 "No eye has seen any God besides you,who acts on behalf of those who wait for him." I had two meetings with families last week to give my official presentation (a.k.a. "The Shpiel") about GRM. I left both meetings feeling discouraged...there is a constant self analysis in fund raising that makes me second guess my delivery. "Did I do enough? Did I say the right things? Did I pray enough? Was I listening to the Spirit to see where people are connecting with this ministry? Did I close with a challenge?" Anyways, I'm learning a lot about all this and I do truly believe that I'm calling people to Kingdom work by supporting. However, God loves to use my desperation these days to push me to him and I'm growing so much in that area. The next morning I was reminded in time with the Lord that this is all about him and not about Caye and how good she is. In reality, I'm a weak vessel but I know he wants to shine in my weakest moments. I recieved a call that morning from a lady in our church. "Do you know who I am?", she said. "I know your name but am unsure of your face". She went on to tell me how she knew me in High School and has followed my journey. She said she had a small gift for me to pick up. (I was thinking it would be $20, which is still thoughtful.) I stopped by and she wanted to hear about GRM. As I began to share I realized it was my first time sharing without my laptop guiding me. She had such a heart for the Muslim world and I began listening to where God was connecting her heart with mine. We spent an hour just sharing and at the end she handed me an envelope. As I drove away I opened it and there was almost $200. I began crying because God had just used this lady to whisper his thoughts: "It's not about you, Caye. It's about me....keep holding my hand and keep listening to my voice....your on the right path"